One month from today I will turn 30 years old. Part of me is a bit scared like I will not be "young" anymore. Logically I know that this is not the case, but still it feels that way. I have been thinking about it and if I have accomplished the things that I thought I would have by this time in my life. Now almost anytime I would say no, but when I really think about it I have. While I did go to college and eventually completed my degree that was never really the most important thing to me. Having a big important career has never meant much to me. For the last ten years I have worked at a job I really liked and I believe that is the important thing. Maybe my being a pharmacy technician does not sound all that impressive, but I was helping people and took pride in my work.
Also I met and married a wonderful man. Marriage was never really a goal that I had. I did hope that it would happen, but I never dreamed that I would have gotten as lucky as I did.
Before I married I was very independent. For five years I lived entirely on my own with no room mate or anything. Times were hard and money was tight, but I would not trade one minute of it. That was when I grew up and learned how to make it own my own. Which considering I married a military man is a good thing.
I had a bit of a wild time in my early twentys. During this time I did a lot of partying. While drinking was involved luckily for me I never got into any trouble, and now I do not drink at all. While I am not ashamed of this during this time I got a lot of tattoos and some piercings. Actually I still love my tattoos. I doubt I will get anymore, but do not regret what I got. These tattoos are never visible in my pictures. I no longer wear shirts that expose my back.
There is one thing that I thought I would have done by now, and that is have children. This is something that is yet to happen for my husband and I. We are hoping that it will, but I am not going to let myself be unhappy because it has taken so long. When the timing is right a child will come along.
As I write this I realize that I am not old and there are still so many years ahead of me, and so many things that I am yet to learn. My goal for these next 30 years is to learn as much as I possibly can about anything that interests me. What I have learned in these first 30 years is learning is the most important thing to me and I intend to learn as much as I can!
that's really cool that you were able to change so much after being into drinking and not drink at all now. I don't know many people who are like that one bit. Usually they never get out or they still do it occasionally (with getting drunk too). I've never touched the stuff ever, but I think this is really awesome that you were able to go through and learn like this. What type of tattoos do you have?
ReplyDeleteHappy baby making! I know people who still are having kids in their 30s who are in their mid-late 30s even. That is good thaty ou won't let yourself get all upset over it if it doesn't happen immediately. I have a cousin who was stressed out like nuts because they turned 30 and were married for six years but with the same person since they were 14 that they were really upset. . .finally after they accepted things as they were they got pregnant and are now about 23 weeks into it. I think that's really great. While I know loads of people who weren't able to have any and adopted (or didn't even do that). It is sometimes odd to me how sometimes people who don't want kids get pregnant right away and people who desire it don't get them until after years and years if ever. It took me a month or two of trying with my husband before we got pregnant with our first and the second one wasn't planned at all but was a happy surprise. we're done now though unless we adopt one day.
You're still young!!!!!! Happy 30th in a month!