Catching Up

It's been awhile since I posted. I had my 30th birthday!!Yay!! It was actually kind of anti-climactic. I don't feel any different or anything, but I did have a great birthday!

I didn't want a big party so myself my husband my cousin Chaya and her husband and my friend Jason all went out to a nice dinner. We chose an Italian restaurant that Chaya and I went to a lot in our early twenties. It was so much fun. The food was great as it always is there, but we sat for about two hours telling stories and laughing. Chaya was my roommate when I first moved out of my parents house, and while we had a rather large apartment it had so many problems that it was just crazy. We got to telling all of those stories and the next thing we knew we were crying from laughing so hard. That is the best feeling in the world.

Just to give a little history Chaya and I are first cousins so we have know each other all our lives. Chaya and I met Jason when we were both working for a hospital in Nashville. Jason and I became instant friends and not long after him and Chaya became close too. Chaya and I lived together and Jason lived in the neighboring apartment complex. For anyone who is wondering Jason is strictly a platonic friend. Chaya and I are not his type so to speak, and our husbands are totally ok with our friendship with him. Anyway that said he knew all of our stories because he lived most of them with us. Well Chaya and I can say a few words and know what were talking about then just start laughing. This leaves our poor husbands wondering what we find so funny!

The night was so good for me. Seeing how much we have all grown. What we have become, and even though we have had our rough patches we have remained close all this time. It was good to share my birthday with family. While Chaya is my actual family Jason I have considered a memeber of the family for years too. Infact he comes to all our family functions. I also believe that your friends are the family you make for yourself, and I am so very blessed to have such a wonderful family!! :)

What makes you a "GrownUp"???

My family and friends have been doing something for awhile that is really starting to bother me, and to be honest hurt my feelings. Most of the people I know that are my age or close to my age have children. Of course I think this is wonderful, but both of my friends and family have started to treat me as though I am selfish or not really an adult because I do not have children. As I have said my husband and I are trying, but it is taking a long time. Surprisingly as much as I mention that in this blog I do not often talk about it with my friends or family. That excludes my mother I do tell her how I am feeling, and her and my father are not the ones who are making me feel this way.

I am sure that nobody intends for this to happen, but they say things all the time that make me feel as if I am a bad person for not having children. When I talk about reading or sewing or a trip that my husband and I took they will make comments to the effect of I wish I had time and money for that stuff. Then I start to feel bad that I do have time to read and sew, but what am I supposed to do?

Mostly I get hurt when they treat me like I am less of an adult. I have been on my own for over a decade. I own a house and of course pay all of the bills and do all of the maintance that goes along with that. While I am not as good of a cook as my husband, I cook our meals most everynight. While my husband does make the money I am the one who takes care of paying the bills. I of course clean and do laundry and yard work etc.

Now do not get me wrong. I fully realize that there are a whole new set of responsibilities that come along with parenthood. However, it does hurt when these people act as if I am selfish and they are not. I know they don't realize it, but they are hurting me. I can not make myself get pregnant. Its not my fault that it is not easy for me. While I do refuse to let myself be unhappy just because I have yet to have a baby it does bother me. I want it, but am not willing to spend thousands of dollars to get pregnant. My husband and I will most likely adopt, but until we get to a more permanent duty station we can't consider it, because the court would not let us adopt while we are in so much transition.

Like I said, I am feel like the people who do this have no intention of making me feel bad. They probably have no idea that they have, but I just really had to get it off my chest.

Happily Ever After

My dear friend Delaney and her lovely fiance got married Friday afternoon. I am so very happy for her. She has had a long road to finding true love, and I believe that she has found a wonderful man in Raphael. I believe that they will live a very long and happy life together. The actually ceremony was private, but we were able to celebrate with them later that evening at the reception. It was great to be able to share their special day together. Unfortunately I did not get any pictures of the groom. He was was very excited and I couldn't get him to stand still long enough!! My husband was especially happy. Him and Dee worked nights together in Iraq for 15 months, so needless to say they developed a very deep friendship. Then when he returned home Delaney and I became instant friends. We were even fortunate enough to keep her children for her for a month while she had to go to a training school. That was such a blessing in itself. They are great children and I find myself missing them a lot. Of course I still get to see them, but it was really nice when they were here. I wish the couple a lifetime of love and happiness.

Let it Snow!

I have not been good about putting my photography on this blog. Well I am going to do better starting now. We have had a little bit of snow already here in Tennessee, so I took a few pictures of it....Enjoy! :)

Hello 2011!!

Happy New Year!! This is going to be a big year for me. My husband and I are finally getting transfered out of TN. We will not be moving once but twice!! First we will leave TN and move to Virginia for six months, so that he can attend a school. Then we have no idea where his orders will be to. They could send us overseas or even back to Ft. Campbell. I'm really hoping that we do not end up back here. Its not a bad place to live, but I am really ready for a change. While my husband is from the other side of the country I have actually lived in some part of TN my entire life, so I am just ready to experience something new.

While I am looking foward to this year so far it has not been so good. I have been sick since the day after Christmas, and it only seems to be getting worse. Husband and I had to cancel our New Years Eve plans just because I didn't feel like it. We didn't have huge plans. One of my girlfriends was have a small house party, but I was really looking foward to it. Oh well...

As for resolutions. I don't really make them. If I have a goal I want to reach I just go ahead and get started, but I will try and spice this blog up a little!!

Here are a few pics from Husband's b-day and Christmas. I like the one of me with my Dad's guitar. I haven't played in years. Maybe that should be a resolution....Hum.